AN UNFINISHED DIARY

AN UNFINISHED DIARY

by — H. Schwab, originally in German, translated to Polish then English

October 5:   Today my life began. My parents don’t know it yet. I am smaller than the seed of an apple, but already I am I. And unformed as I am right now, I’m going to be a girl. I shall have blond hair and azure eyes, and I know I’ll love flowers.

October 19:   I’ve grown a little, but I am still too small to do anything by myself. Mother does just about everything for me. And what’s funny, she still doesn’t even know that she is carrying me here right under her heart.  And feeding me with her own blood.

October 23:  My mouth is just beginning now. Just think. In a year or so I will be laughing. Later I will be able to speak. I know what my first word will me-Mother. Who says I’m not a real person yet? I am, just as the tiniest crumb of bread is till truly bread.

October 27:  My heart began to beat today all by itself. From now on it will gently beat all the rest of my life. Without ever stopping to rest. T hen after many years it will tire, and stop, and I shall die. But now I am at not the ending but the beginning.

November 2:  Every day I grow a bit. My arms and legs are beginning to take shape. But I’ll have to wait so long before my little legs will carry me running to my mother’s arms, and before my arms can embrace my father.

November 12:   Now tiny fingers are beginning to form on my hands. Strange how small they are. Yet how wonderful they will be! They’ll pet a puppy, throw a ball, pick a flower, touch another hand. My fingers. Someday they may play a violin or paint a picture.

November 20:  Today the doctor told Mother for the first time that I am lying here under her heart.  Aren’t you happy, Mother? Before long I’ll be in your arms.

November 25:  My mother and father don’t even know that I’m just a little girl. Perhaps they expect a boy. Or twins maybe. But I’ll surprise them. And I want to be called Catherine, like Mother.

December 10:  My face is completely formed. I hope I turn out to look like Mother.

December 13:  Now I’m just about able to see, but it’s still dark all around me. But soon my eyes will open on the world of sunshine—and followers—and little children. I’ve never seen the sea, or a mountain, or a rainbow, either. How do they really look? How do you really look, Mother?

December 24:  Mother, I can hear your heart beating. I wonder if you hear the whispering beat of mine. It’s so even—tup-tup, tup-tup. You’ll have a healthy little daughter, Mother. I know some babies have difficulty entering the world, but there are kind doctors to help mothers and babies. I know, too, some mothers don’t even want their babies. But I can hardly wait to be in your arms, touch your face, look into your eyes. You’re waiting for me, just as I’m waiting for you, aren’t you?

December 28:  Mother, why did you let them stop my life? We would have had such a lovely time together.

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Editors’ Note:–This story comes from the scrapbook of motion-picture and T star Loretta Young. Originally written in German by H. Schwab, it appeared in Sodalis magazine in a Polish version, from which this translation was made. We believe, with Miss Young, that this story of an unborn child is eloquent in any language.

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YES, WE ARE TO JUDGE

     clear-temple                                                                          – Mary A.  La Clair

A concordance of the NIV Bible shows 25 references to the word ‘warn’; eleven being in the New Testament. If judging always and only meant ‘merely to think’ or ‘to form an opinion’, and if we never ‘judged’ in that way we would help to create anarchy and lawlessness.

This, too, is what the devil seeks for mankind and he may appear close to succeeding, if we let him.hide from God

Jesus tells us not to hide our light under a bushel.  We are to be salt and light. Without light there is darkness, without salt, there is decay, without truth, there is deception.

 

To make an absolute of “Judge not lest you be judged” necessitates ignoring Jesus when he says we are to judge:

judge hand n gavel1 Cor 6:2-5: “Do you not know that the saints will judge the world? And if the world will be judged by you, are you unworthy to judge the smallest matters? Do you not know that we shall judge angels? How much more, things that pertain to this life? …… Is it so, that there is not a wise man among you, not even one, who will be able to judge between his brethren?”  NKJV

We need to practice our judgment regarding sin in the church. This is warning the righteous.  We are to be salt and light to the world and warn of an eternal judgment. This is warning the wicked. So, do not be intimidated by others, judge for yourselves…. are we judging when we warn?

John 7:24  “Judge not according to the appearance, but judge righteous judgment.”

Luke 12:57  “Yea, and why even of yourselves judge ye not what is right?”  KJV In addition, God does tell us to judge those within the church.

1 Cor 5:9-13 tells us immorality in the church must be judged.clear-temple “What business is it of yours to judge the  heathen, God will do that.  It is our business to judge those inside the church.” 

We are to put the immoral person outside. If we accept sin in the church we send the message that God accepts sin in heaven, which is obviously not true.

I wanted to write this from the viewpoint that a judgment carries with it a punishment, and if that punishment were not inflicted, we were not guilty of judging.  In view of this, I sought of the Lord what He meant when He said, ‘Judge not lest ye be judged’, and that same day the Lord reminded me of a lady I know whom I used to think arrogant and proud by the straight way she walked and how she held her head high; until I knew her better and found out she had been in an accident and that she had a metal rod next to her spine and a steel plate in her jaw. Jesus’ words: “Judge not lest you be judged” finally became clear. We need to be careful before we judge someone’s spirit by mere outward appearance. Jesus still continues to instruct that we must judge between right and wrong, especially in the church; and that we must warn both the righteous, and our countrymen, against wrong actions, that we must praise and encourage good works, and that we must keep ourselves clean by judging our own motives and actions first.

-end for more on ‘judging’ you may wish to read: ‘Judging Those Who Judge Us’ which may be found at: https://theproverbs120column.wordpress.com/category/judging/judging-those-who-judge-us/

JUDGING THOSE WHO JUDGE US

The Spiritual Weapon of the Two Edged Sword

– by Mary A. LaClair

“No weapon formed against you shall prosper, and every tongue which rises against you in judgment you shall condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteousness is from Me,” says the LORD.”   Isaiah 54:17 NKJV.

Concerning this scripture it has been brought to my attention that it might be possible for misconceptions to arise…from the hands of the enemy of course–who just loves to twist Scripture. Therefore I have written a clarification which I think may be necessary for some whom ol’ slewfoot may try to mislead to his advantage. Please take the time to read it below. Hopefully you may never need it, but in today’s world, who knows!

Concerning the Isaiah 54:17 Scripture, notice it says that we shall condemn every tongue raised in judgment against us – not that we ask the Lord to — and it does not say condemn every person who judges us. There is a difference as explained below.

It is easy for a spiritually young person with their natural mind to see people in a battle of words in confrontation with each other; but that is seldom how it should be interpreted. Quoting the Word of God IS warfare in the Spirit.

Once we are able to answer someone kindly who judges us – either by letting them know that THEY are the ones who have judged us by accusing us of judging; or, by letting them know they are in error because they do not know the Scriptures, then is the time to claim the Isaiah 54:17 Scripture for ourselves.

https://theproverbs120column.wordpress.com/category/judging/warning-is-not-the-same-as-judging/

Quoting the Word of God IS warfare in the Spirit.

We are able to use our tongue in speaking this Scripture aloud so it goes out into the heavenly realm—we use our own tongue to – ‘condemn every tongue raised in judgment against us’. Quoting the Word of God IS warfare in the Spirit.

We quote this verbally, and it is not necessarily in the presence of the other person – –which could invite unnecessary confrontation; this is putting our words out there in the atmosphere because the devil needs to hear it. Remember how Jesus did this to the devil in the temptation in the dessert. (Luke chapter 4) Quoting God’s word can act like a stealth missile in the spiritual world even if done quietly in our heart at the time, later speaking it aloud into the heavenly when by ourselves.

This works…because:

  • our battle is not of this world, it is in the spiritual,
    • – “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against  the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.” Eph 6:12 NIV)
  • We use God’s weapons
    • “For though we live in the world we are not carrying on a worldly war, for the weapons of our warfare are not worldly but have  divine power to destroy strongholds.” 2 Cor 10:3-4 (RSV)
  • the sword of the Spirit is the Word of God –
    • “…and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.” Eph. 6:17 RSV)

When we simply use our tongue to speak this Isaiah 54:17 Scripture aloud into the heavenly realm, we thereby use our own tongue to —‘condemn every tongue raised in judgment against us’.

This process of quoting and speaking the Word of God IS warfare in the Spirit, for we are re-speaking God’s Word.

Joyce Meyer has shared with her listeners that sometimes this Scripture will come to her mind for no apparent reason; she then acts on it by either speaking it out loud or in her mind depending on the current circumstances. When she asked our Lord about this, the impression she received was that someone, somewhere may have been speaking against her – and those words were being  combated in the Spiritual realm by claiming the application of God’s Word for herself.

This then effectively becomes the DOUBLE EDGE SWORD  as described by Rick Renner:

The Sword is the Word; the first edge is when it comes from God’s mouth; the second edge is when it comes from our mouth – thus the two edged sword.   For further reading please see: https://theproverbs120column.wordpress.com/category/judging/warning-is-not-the-same-as-judging/  and:

https://theproverbs120column.wordpress.com/category/judging/we-are-to-judge/

Thank you for reading!  Be blessed in your righteous judgments!